Broken

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It's now going on almost three years since my anxiety disorder first entered my life uninvited and about six months since I last slept properly, not feeling like I'd only had a few hours sleep.

Now marriage is on the horizon and life is getting twenty times busier, what with what feels like a one and only chance to recertify and upskill.

Finances are causing untold stress as well, which puts more pressure on me for the above reasons and future plans (read: family).

Sadly, I can only see realism and logic, 1's and 0's, if then else. This can and regularly does get perceived as negative, not very helpful to my cause.

My way of thinking probably isn't normal, but what is? More importantly, why should I change that if that is who I am?

I'm now at a point where my relationship with the fiancée is stretched to the point of breaking, like a rubber band that keeps stretching, but amazingly hasn't broken. Yet.

I can see part of my father in the way I do certain things, which scares the heck out of me, because I do not want to be like him. I want to be me, and I most certainly don't want to be encumbered by the same physical and/or psychological issues he portpotedly has.

I am so tired, both literally and figuratively and I am finding it very difficult to continue on this 'do until' or 'do while' life.

I'm also very disappointed in myself, for not getting the career on track earlier in my life.

I'm also frustrated that all my hard work isn't recognised at all, that I forget so many simple things, nor can I focus at my job or my studies, adding more stress in getting ahead.

I am not seeking sympathy, but I am trying to find positivity at work and in my life, which just aren't anywhere to be seen.

RATIONALISING TAX

"Natural disasters are perhaps evolving into MAN MADE disasters.

We may appreciate, for example, that Queensland floods could be exacerbated by coal exports.

Maybe taxes can evolve to suit circumstances!

An all important "Carbon Tax" should replace out-dated income tax and last century's G.S.T. (Not to mention Sales tax, flood levys, etc.)

Imagine the stimulus to the economy!

What do we, especially grand children and children, deserve?

MAYBE HOPE.

One tax - one future!!"

This is an interesting notion. Why not remove all other (or at least most) failed tax systems and replace them with a single rationalised (and given the current climate changes, possibly justified one)?


References:

1. Bergin, R. (2011). Rationalising Tax. Unpublished leaflet (discussion)
   

television

I had finally saved up enough to purchase a new TV!

I bought a Samsung 50" 1080p (FULL HD) Plasma which I ordered online from JB Hi-Fi and it was delivered to us two days after the order was made!

According to a JB Hi-Fi pamphlet, the TV was reduced in price the same day that it was delivered, but I could not be bothered arguing about the price reduction with them, due to the fact that it was delivered so quickly.

Not expecting it to arrive so soon, I was forced to purchase a TV unit (Opra 2230 - which I had discovered in an Anthony Murray's Furniture pamphlet about a month prior to all this).

Unfortunately, the TV Entertainment unit has been delayed, until (hopefully) next week, so I am a bit sad at not being able to use my brand new TV yet :(

Now what shall I 'christen' the TV with?


UPDATE 29/09/2010 @ 16:19
Had to call the furniture shop (multiple times) to confirm that supplier has delivered unit to warehouse, but we will not be receiving it until Friday at the earliest... *sigh*

UPDATE 10/10/2010 @ 13:33
TV Entertainment unit arrived last week and it's all post-drilled and TV is hooked up. Problem is, TV looks small on such a large unit :-P


Current Mood: Exhausted

playing the waiting game

I'm still unemployed and now running low on cash.

This is partly due to the so-called Global Financial Crisis.

I have been going nuts applying for not only Network Engineer (preferred) roles, but also Network Administrator and even hell-desk roles (as well as allowing for a pay decrease), but still nothing has stuck.

I am starting to get interviews with the employers, which means that I am getting short-listed, but haven't managed to gain employment yet.

The main things that are really staring to annoy me (which are also related to one another):

1. Employers and agencies not return phone calls.
   
2. Employers and agencies not following up on applications and
   
3. Employers and agencies not identifying key points to unsuccessful applications/interviews.
   

I'm also having difficulty trying to get a random (non-IT) job ffs!


Current Mood: Frustrated

UNI and Entertainment (the book)

I just fount out that I got 77.5% (31/40) for my second major Wireless Security assignment! *SQUEEEE!!!*

This means that I don't have to worry so much about the final exam as I should pass this unit finally (this is the third attempt at doing it too :P).

On another note, Me and my GF purchased a Entertainment™ Book, which has almost paid for half of itself in savings already already after two meals *lol

The great thing about this book is it's also entertaining just searching through it looking for new places to go to, things to do and places to eat at! It's so awesome!

I just realised that this is the sort of thing that all UNI students should have also. If I ever go to a SCiSSA meeting, I might just tell them about it and try get some people interested in distributing them... Meh, It has been fun and I will miss it in future, but I've had enough of UNI now.


Current Mood: Very Happy