Emotional Inteligence

I vaguely remember a time when I used to get exited about new games, the latest Android phone or some cool gadget or some accessible, open source technology, but I think those days are now, unfortunately in the past.

Since I've been forcefullly made unemployed through redundancy, I've had more time to reflect on a lot of things. One of which is the innability or reluctance to get excited about something.

Why? Because work opportunities are not working out and life keeps thowing curve-balls causing too much dissapointment to get emotionally invested.

That means that I'm falling back to logic and reason for most things in life, trying to expect the worst, but hope for the best, which while it may make me less humanised in a society which is meant to embrace happiness and joy and possitivity in the fight for mental health.

So, in order to maintain expectations and avoid depression and anxiety, it appears as though emotional inteligence is the solution (at least for me).

Busy not working

Leading up to part 2 of my CCNP exam this week, I've found that while I've been unemployed for 3 weeks now (due to redundancy), I've not been any less busy.

It's a strange feeling being unemployed, busy juggling study, job seeking (and keeping active on this blog) and also being removed from the job and environment that I'm most familiar with.

What's even more wierd is that I have a home office where I used to perform some of my job as part of my previous employers hybrid work model, but I now find myself spend most of my time studying and job searching in the same physical environment, which feels alot like work except for the fact that I don't get paid for any of it.

I guess I need to maintain a positive outlook and attitude and keep in the back of my mind (awareness) that I'm actually not working and that what I'm doing on a daily basis is not actually a job despite the fact that it has the the feel of being in one!